DoRcAs

all the colours in a rainbow plus all others you can name. reading. taking neoprints. 5566. boa. simple plan. christina. evanescence. a lot of other singers/bands i cant remember their names. songs. sleeping. going out. talking deep with someone. going out alone. woodlands library. my dark red checked backpack. my cd player. jace7.blogdrive.com. taking photos. laksa the yellow noodle. vespa bikes. writing. happiness. pointy shoes that dont give blisters. flare skirts. my silver slippers. my roxy backpack. my black necklace. my colourful star necklace. cuff bracelets. smiling people. stoning. guitar. my room. the wooden coloured phone set with the huge buttons. my white and red sweaters. chocolate or chocolate chip. surprising bouquets of flowers. red roses. blue roses. lilies. every other flower that looks good. broadband. my adiddas sneakers. my nike track shoes. my ring with the pink crystal button. my diamond ring. dancing. singing. friends who dont suck. smallish dogs. the 2 cats from the malay family at story 1 which always stare at me. my 6 budgies. loud music. ballads. laughing at funny statements in books. especially romantic comedies.


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Saturday, August 07, 2004
fiz birfday... sad sad sad... not him, me.

happy birthday hafiz. finally 17. feel any different?

today. tired. damn tired. sleeping in locvdp tutorial. and then wei chin sorta like dissed my group and everything, ok i know our video sucked but we really tried esp with the music thing... and then during consultation she was like quite fierce also, dunno why lah. we were just trying to be friendly, maybe she thought we were digressing or something.

then what else....
yeah after locvdp, had to kill time waiting for fiz... luckily got melvin... hey girlfren, thanks for listening to my bitching... you're quite cool in your own way lah, you understand me haha. yeah. its nice when a guy understands. and he actually feels sad for me. AAWWW thanks. but then he keep reminding me by saying things, wah... pain lor.

yeah then turned out fiz had forgotten he was supposed to meet me... so i called him.. if i didnt he prob wouldnt have come... yeah well... we talked for a brief minute then he rushed off coz i think people were waiting for him back at the bus stop where he came from... so yeah.

melvin and i left after a while, i went off he went library coz he got french today thus staying back...

yeah..

wah no mood to blog

oh but i wanna say im proud of myself coz i went and ran two rounds just now... and did some sit ups and push ups... after like how many donkey years of not doing any exercise save the weekly tennis sessions... should make this routine like every friday or wtv but i doubt i can keep to it... today's was just a spur of the moment thing, sudden enthusiasm abt it. its a long story but there was a reason why i suddenly went and ran today.

then somemore, i decided to take 154 all the way home. hey, that actually means something ok... i dont ever take 154 all the way coz the journey bloody long and gives me bad headaches...

k lah i think i go snooze, or else i shall go offline and start doing my work liao....

once again, happy birthday hafiz. peace yo. dorcas out.




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Thursday, August 05, 2004
founder's day dinner

tonight's FOUNDER'S DAY DINNER.
thinking back on it now, maybe the actual dinner wasnt that enjoyable, but being there and with people that i didnt know i missed quite a lot, was. although our class turnout was damn little compared to other classes, it was just quite nice lor. i REALLY REALLY want to take some fotos with some people, and some more fotos with those i took with, but sadly there's no chance to. want to take some more with guohao. didnt take any with elena so i want to take with her. want to take more with jx. del. tiff. kian wee. didnt take any with gabriel. want to take with cass. su yi. anyone i know. just want to take with them i can remember them. sigh. i dont have the akapella foto. im damn pissed. but what to do. and the one foto with ben is over-exposed. grrrr!!!
haiz. but well, out of all my fotos, which are very very very few compared to that of my imagination which is too many anyway, i like the picture of terry, simply because he looks good in the foto, and i just have been trying to get a foto of him since what, 2 years ago? so to finally get it is just nice lor. then i like the one of myself, though its very small, cant see details like my necklace or whatever... a bit wasted lah. nvm. then.... those with other people one... i like the one with mark, only because i seem to look nice there, not that i know mark at all haha... and i cant remember the other ones lah. basically my hair looks damn weird in all of them. its the fringe lah. maybe i shd try and fix the fringe.
well tonight... the dinner programme... um was alright, basically nothing much, people were just taking fotos and saying hi to other people lor.. nothing lah.. hardly ate anything which is quite sad, dunno whats the waiter's prob didnt gimme noodles lor damn him. i always say thank you to him and he dont gimme noodles. then no mushroom. then the fish gimme all the broken pieces. wah lau. in the end i drank 5 glasses of coke. dammit. yeah then had some people sing on stage for us, got one grp pri 4, one grp pri 5, one grp ex sec 4 i.e. timothy leon etc. k lah. but i still felt like a lot was missing from the dinner. we didnt have much to say to each other, maybe we're just not close lor. esp jerome and joseph, i think they were kinda left out too, since their clique wasnt there, i.e shirong and terence. piak and huimin also didnt come. nick didnt. ok to name those who did, me guohao del tiff daniel joseph jerome lijia who didnt sit with us jonathan wen jia yen bing jian xiang i think thats all right. yeah. no elena no kelvin... quite quiet without them. donno leh. maybe its just me, or else, i didnt feel a connection with the rest of those in that big room. even with those of us around the same table, sometimes i couldnt think of anything to say to them, simply coz i dont even know them at all. like jerome and joseph. what could we possibly talk abt other than school, which only in name, we have in common. aaaahhh. dunno. saw other classes seem so happy and so united and i felt quite sad that we're not like that at all.
(just let me say this oop thing which you may not understand but im just frustrated abt it... WHY THE HELL AM I STILL DC-ING I THOUGHT HE FIXED THE DAMN CONNECTION TODAY ALREADY, WHATS THE REAL PROBLEM WITH THIS CONNECTION HUH?!? STILL DC-ING? ISNT IT SUPPOSED TO BE FIXED FOR GOOD? DAMN!!)
yes next. then after the dinner we went to esplanade. loved loved loved being there at that time and it was damn nice and windy. really love the place at night. lotsa couples lah but its ok i guess. just makes me kinda wish i had someone special to go there with. oh well. yeah so i really felt reluctant to leave, although we spent quite long there, but there were still many things i really wanted to talk about, like, just wanted to know whats been up with them, i really wish we could have talked more, felt kinda left out as i always do, coz a lot of things i know that i dont know. but i guess everyone was like just... maybe tired, maybe thinking about the whole going home thing... so its like... yeah. then tmr most pple have school. i dont, but i have to get up early, go out early, buy all my supplies, find the stand for fiz's present, do my media updates, do my gracom bloody projects... F i forgot about copying my notes. no copying's gonna get done tmr liao. forget it haiz. no mood or energy to think now.
yeah so we spent quite a while there but after that we had to leave liao. by then was already past 1140pm i think. squashed into del's dad's car. in the end everyone got dropped off just downstairs of their homes. many thanks for the lift again! sorry for the trouble, really.
sigh. so yeah. guess thats all lor. still missing some people, like, just feel like talking to them and sorta re-finding these people i once talked to and once knew, perhaps more than hi bye or no talk to all... you could say i miss those whom i dont know. coz they're now all strangers, if you mean personally.
k lor, gonna go and do something else. haiz. wish i could have stayed at esplanade. coming home, only see my mother's not-very-happy-face for some reason, my dad's prob really mad with me for coming home after 12, but i couldnt help it today, and yday. he shdnt blame me, its not like i went clubbing or anything.
well. ciao. au revoir. good morning.

dorcas
peace out

p.s forgot to mention that my camera fell into the prawn dish and gave me a heart attack... which reminds i have to wash the stupid case before ants come sia. haiz too lazy. and parents will then know that something happened. i cant tell them see...

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Sunday, August 01, 2004
i should never have been born. never.






























































































































in all my 17 years, i've never felt so lousy about myself for being your daughter, than i do tonight.

dorcas

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Saturday, July 31, 2004
on the tips of my toes

today.
how about i start with last night.
see previous entry. was damn damn damn pissed.
scolded f all the way.
questioned God and cried like i haven't done in a long long time.
in the end tired myself out to sleep, because today got medisoc and locvdp.
today.
nothing big. medisoc was interesting. i actually like this module if only it wasn't so hard to score.
everyone's gracom project looks great. mine sux in comparison. they went for laser printing and everything. cost a lot. hope kok kee dont just look at the colour nice then give them good grade then i print from home gimme lousy grade. wont right?
then ok lor. got daniel to come out and pei me, since no one else available. just didnt want to come home and face father lah. sianz of parents.
broke down and cried in the train... was talking about my grandma then i just got overwhelmed by all the sadness and anger i've been facing these few days due to all those reasons...
was not very glam i suppose, i know got people looking at me.
didn't care lah. was sad what, already start to cry, what could i do.
first time cried that much on a train. yeah. sorry daniel if it was awkward for you to be sitting beside me.
managed to stop crying and look up before reaching woodlands.
ate a late lunch at mac then walked around. tried all the rings in the shop. love love love the things there. really do.
bought a ring for min wen, sadly cant find back the one i have since she likes that one. well hope she likes this one.
went to popular, got 2 pens. yay. thanks.
sadly the purple bear i wanted from long ago is no longer there. never mind. waste money anyway.
popped into a lot of shops and checked out all the stuff. bought nothing though.
went to metro. saw a lot of clothes there i like. some pieces are really really nice.
went through the toy section. nothing too fascinating, mostly alright.
bought some studs later when we were leaving woodlands. expensive sigh. i hate to spend any more money. none to spend. i have $1 right now and that's it.
come home. find yet another stupid person sent registered mail to my house. the last thing i want is for anyone to send registered mail because my father will get it and then know i have mail.
braced myself for their return.
what a silent, awkward, unhappy, cold dinner we just had.
no one spoke, only a few sentences of small talk, i said nothing the whole dinner.
they were trying not to bring up anything, and trying to pretend things were normal.
i know they know i had more mail today.
i know they aren't happy about it.
maybe they have some agreement not to mention it. maybe they just don't want a replay of last night's ugly arguement scene.
i feel like they have an agreement.
smart move.
i've heard enough from them to last me the next week. please.
shut up.
stay out of my way.
let me be.
that's the best you can do for me right now.

hafiz is not online. i would really like to talk to him about something.
tomorrow i'm bringing yi le is present. hope he likes it.
tomorrow i have to collect fiz's present.
going to be busy tomorrow.
and i am so tired now.
i wish i wasn't going to school tomorrow.
wei chin and the editing machine. both have common goals:
1. to put me to sleep
2. to cause me more confusion
3. and stress
4. to drain whatever energy i managed to recharge myself after the lousy night's sleep.
nice, isn't it.
and my stress level for the next week is going to shoot sky high.
media updates. impromptu speech. french test. editing narrative video. starting to plan assessed project one locvdp, if there's time for my group to do so. planning of debate, my group.
dont think i'll be granted my thursday this week.
really tired now. think i need to sleep.
tomorrow wearing my new clothes. just to make myself happy.
oh yeah.
fairfield go to hell lah.
you think you very big now ah, ostracizing my class from founder's day dinner.
what do you mean no more tables, no more tickets.
where got people plan a graduation dinner and not expect more to show up.
hello, it's out grad too, and we want to see our friends too.
we may not be the smartest or best class but you don't have a right to refuse us tables.
cram 2 more in there. there is space. you're just not willing to do it.
doesnt matter. appreciate the rest.
also, maybe i'll just get my 4F to go out for something, dinner, or whatever.
thanks a lot for not helping, fairfield.
can you believe not getting to attend your own grad.
ah whatever. don't have to feel inferior to the beauties [pukez] on that night.
ahaha sorry to any beauty who is reading this. i don't mean you specifically.
that's it. i'm tired. tomorrow there's school.
goodnight.
peace yo. dorcas, out.

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Friday, July 30, 2004
low

sometimes i hate coming home.
not just because i have to face my parents and the uncertainty of their attitudes.
but for the plain fact that i think a lot more when im alone and when im at home.
i think about everything that happened in the day, good or bad, and the bad always ends up outweighing the good by far somehow... no matter how good the day has been.
i think about the things said, the actions done.
i regret not doing what i wanted to do or could have done, i chide myself for things i could have said or wanted to, but did not.
i think about my class, and the stupid divide that's slowly surfacing. how they are starting to leave people out. and how i see myself being one of them again.
ok here comes my mom scolding me again. for auctioning things again.
can she stop it. does she want me to tell her that i have no money left now already, cant auction even if i wanted to.
i hate coming home. why do i have to come home.
why do i have to face my parents.
why do i have to think.
why does everything go so badly.
can they just leave me along. i am so sick of it. all of it.





today watched house of flying daggers. good arty show but there was no solid ending and there were some parts which were inconsistent. so yeah kind of weird. after learning locvdp, tend to look out for these things. maybe not obvious to anyone else but kind of stands out now



SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT MY BANK ACCOUNT AND MY MONEY YOU WANT THE SUPPORT MONEY GO AND ASK MY DAD COME AND ASK ME FOR FUCKING WHAT USE
JUST FUCK OFF LAH MOTHER! FUCKING BITCH!!

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Thursday, July 29, 2004
damn just cant be happy even for a day

damn.
i feel like saying fuck.
oh. how lame. i just said it.
just now i played tennis till i cried. i cant stand it. the game makes me really frustrated and makes me feel really stupid about myself. i hate the game. because it makes me feel like a failure. no matter how hard i try i still cant play well. just like in specom. i try but i cant speak well. i still lose.
lose lose lose.
thats what im here in life for.
to lose. to always be the someone who loses
in everything.
i lose in everything, to everything, and everything.
everything, everyone i love, everything i cherish, i lose.
fuck.
"let me tell you what you want baby!"
its in an f.i.r song. doesnt mean anything when i type it, but now im thinking abt it and it means
something.
ARGH WTF IS WRONG WITH ME MAN
i am going crazy!
fuck im damn p.i.s.s.e.d.
daniel can you not always choose those days when im really fucked up, to get on my case?
then its like, he's totally pissing me off with every single thing he's doing.
i am already tired of waiting and liking him. i cant remember previously giving up on someone this fast. usually i hold out for a long time. but right now due to the build up of negativity these few days, i have no energy to spend on all these things anymore. so its really too bad but im over the limit.
he's always either doing something else or he doesnt notice anything or something like that. cant stand it lah. really had enough of people being this way in my life. nobody ever notices the shit. everyone's forever preoccupied. enough man. enough.
i feel absolutely SICK of everything and everyone.
just get lost.
there's nothing to talk about.
MISERABLE.
CAN THE WORLD JUST FUCK OFF FOR A WHILE AND LEAVE ME ALONE. ALREADY MISERABLE WHAT MORE DO YOU ALL WANT.






























just want to leave my body and fly away.




























dorcas

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Thursday, July 22, 2004
first time

..... yes first time....
trying out the wireless here at mac!!! WOOHOOO i totally rock!! i managed to get a connection and now i can surf and everything hehehehe i love this man...
but then im running on battery so i cant surf much, i need to do my specom hmk!! sob oh well at least i can on my msn and everything, not that anyone is online right now lor.. like only penny and she's stoning away i think, and fiz is busy and anyway he's gonna leave for school soon so its like sian diao... my lunch is getting real cold but haiz heck this is more fun hahaha....
nothing much to type only to tell the whole world that i got the connection hehehe. feels good like i achieved something lidat
today i got a bit of a cold and its like my nose is blocked and then i've been trying to concentrate and write my notes, thursdays are for piaing one so i have no choice i have to do my notes and all hnmk today if not no time till next thurs... people all looking at me sia typing away furiously hahaha. lol. i dunno why i feel good about this. its just nothing.
yeah so its like im quite tired and everything and its like have to write the notes lor. i think i will start to eat now before i start surfing and then end up slacking like hell sia. hmmm still got lotsa stuff to do for today. die.
k then peace yo and dorcas out.









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Wednesday, July 21, 2004
A+ SAB project... then lousy tennis session

yay for one thing i am very pleased that my group got an A+ for our SAB project today! i think my teacher was really generous coz i cant believe we got an A+ for that, not that it wasnt good, it was good, but it could have been great maybe? or maybe that was what she was looking for and we met it, i dunno. but anyway its good news.
then went for tennis, i think im getting really impatient with myself and with cynthia. i dont wanna be impatient but i think she's not trying hard enough, like if the ball keeps going in all directions, someone really trying would try and change the way she hits or holds her racket or something right, but she doesnt really try. so we never can have a game, its not always her fault you know, sometimes its mine, but i do make the effort to try and return her serves, but every game of ours only lasts 2 hits, one serve and one return. if im serving, it only lasts one shot. my serve. so its like damn frustrating we keep having to go and find and pick balls to play. i see other people getting on with their games and i cant even play, though i want to. i want to learn it. and maybe she's not as strong as me under the sun, she tires out very very easily, she sometimes she wants to stop, when we havent even played 10 mins. and its like, darn i wanna play man. and we havent even played. AND she stands in the SHADE and i am standing under the blazing sun, and im running to try and return her serves, and she's in the shade and not really playing and she's like, cant go on already... wah jialat, i am so tired and HOT and i still wanna continue lor. haiz.
then its like the more i play the more pissed i get, and then today terence was getting on my nerves too, like wtf (why the f) does he keep looking at sylvia sia? does he really like her or not? what's his problem, she's attached. and albert, he likes sylvia too isnt it? or does he like wendy? why does everyone like the ones who are attached? (clarification: wendy's not attached.) its nothing personal but i dont think just because certain girls seem to look better, means they are. im not really jealous, im just pissed with the way the world runs. people just look at the chiobus and like them, and nobody else gets a chance, and your heart is worth nothing to them. its so damned unfair. what the hell, i dont know why its pissing me off so much. maybe its just that im so sick of this thing happening and happening all the time, usually i like the guy and he'll go on and like someone who doesnt even like him or whatever, and it'll be like, HELLO wtf (where the f) are your eyes, im like waiting for you but no you want somebody else who dont even like you!? thanks a lot. that sorta thing. so i really cannot stand guys saying they like those typically chio ones, coz its so boring and so routine and stupid. like for once! impress me by opening your eyes wider and seeing the REST of the bloody female population! dammit. im getting more pissed sia. i dont even know how to spell what im really trying to get at.  ahhhh whatever.
so its like yeah. cynthia wasnt helping, terence wasnt helping, at one point in time they all (my girlfriends) went for water break and i sat there alone, and when they came back i just didnt feel like talking to them at all, some of them did wonder why i seemed so down, but i told no one and spoke little. then sylvia was talking to terence, and i was sitting in between them then, and i got pissed because why did i feel he was all happy then? and i picked up my racket and just walked to the other end of the court, just didnt feel like listening to people joking or talking, or feeling people get happier and knowing that only certain people can make certain people happier and it doesnt matter whether or not i try at all... understand?
but again. nothing against sylvia. they're all friends. im just saying, like an example, for a greater, more general purpose.
haix so its like yeah. then im still sad about ZZ, and now he's online but he's out and he wont reply and anyway i have nothing to say to him. i dont think he knows how i feel, but if he does, and he doesnt care, then get outta my life. i HATE guys who know and dont care. if you can dont care, then you're not worth liking. if you like me back, say so. if you dont like me, dont pretend not to know that i like you. just tell me that you dont like me and we can just stay friends. pretending to not know says so much more about how cowardly and evil you are, then if you just tried to smooth things out. imagine a girl finds out that you actually knew how she felt about you but you just didnt do anything and continued hurting her. what kind of impression of yourself are you leaving on her, and everyone else?
but aiyah i dunno what ZZ's thinking lah. whatever it is, i'll never know.
i cant even keep track of all the people i've liked. many. but i dont Love any of them. i like them, i like them a lot, but its never really love. maybe i dont allow myself to love, simply because the pple i like dont even like me back so there's no chance to love, or maybe because im already too used to knowing that im only ruining myself if i allow myself to love. liking already is enough to break my heart, what more love sia.
aiyah parents are home. im so tired.
tmr have to pia pia pia. i dont mind too much. just wanna do a good job with everything. peace yo, dorcas out.








































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on a wednesday morning

i still feel tired. my shoulders really really hurt, when i touch my shoulder blades its as if im pressing hard on a whole lot of blue blacks. ouch! is it because i slept badly or was filming too tiring yesterday? coz most of the time i had to film in odd angles of my body, twisting this way and that, cant be helped.
anyway, sigh i havent managed to finish my specom hmk last night, dunno how to the hell to write the outline, its worth 15 marks so what exactly is she expecting from us?? sigh later i do all out of point then she fail me. its not like just because she loves my shiny sandals means she'll gimme more marks. yeah she said she loves my sandals. imagine her wearing them, she'd look retarded.
yeah whatever so the point is i didnt finish my hmk and now i cant hand it up today means on friday i have to run and hand it up no matter what or i will be failed. i have absolutely nothing to write about fame.
hmm since im feeling a bit down i shall write a short para about each of my classmates. hope they dont see this then lol.
lets start with... derek. you typical studious looking tall broad shoulders kind of good-looking dude. whose msn nick tells you how many calf pull ups he's done. currently the count is at 60000. he's a nice guy, looks like the really steady sort. aww... :)
terence. if he could stop insulting me all the time he could actually be quite nice. haha. he's been less of himself for the past 2 weeks coz got rejected by a girl from who knows where. his face is all pock-marked, bad acne problem i think. i hate his little virgin crap coz i just dont like to talk about this sorta thing, but he is a nice person too. :)
melvin. likes a push me. and then yesterday he (accidentally) punched me wah seh. not really punch lah but he was just doing the action then he hit my specs. i find he's quite domineering, not in a really oppressive sense, but he likes to be heard and he likes to be involved in everything, which is apparent in his actions, and more so during the filming yday. everyone labels him a sissy which he is quite a bit, but other than that he's also quite nice. we get along :)
harie. he's 18 and he's malay but he's cool. tho we dont talk that much but he is nice to everyone, and smtimes he comes and talks to me. he works nights at the night safari, maybe he likes the income but i think its tiring to work and study. he's rather confident of himself too. he's alright. i think he has a girlfriend. hahaha :)
jonathan. um nothing much to say, at first i wanted to get to know him better but i think we just dont click. he's always with certain people, like wendy all those, and never kinda leaves them to talk to other people. which is why i dont like cliques; you never wanna talk to anyone else. jon is cool, but very domineering too. likes to have his way, likes to argue, smtimes his points arent strong or they come out in a very oppressive tone of voice. smtimes i believe, in a discussion or debate, he can really piss pple off the way he says things. like im right means IM RIGHT. he's alright lah. largely metrosexual i must add. :|
jianqi. forget this one i dont know him at all. i mean i just dont talk to him. he's the kind like... kinda lame and childish in some ways, and he hasnt been impressive like the rest. i mean, he's just the duller kinda everyday person, nothing too special. he's an expert in those ball machines which u turn and the toys drop out sort. he's a collecter of them, and knows the real from the fake and everything. hahaha. :|
there are so many girls to name. i shall be brief coz no time. xiao han. too obssessed with transversites and sex. sometimes i get irritated or bored with her repeated attempts to make a funny horny joke. she's also the chiobu sort i guess. looks very eurasian, wears hell lot of make up and rings and her nails are real long. she's ok lah. :)
cynthia. doesnt look like the rich sort, looks like those girls you wont take a second glance at. but everything she owns is so bloody branded. she wears fcuk, esprit, adidas... ah you name it. she's nice, sorta like me, self-esteem not very high and she's quite sensible and practicle... but just smtimes she also kinda likes to fight for her point. but i quite like her :)
ya wen. she's nice, a bit kiasu sometimes i think. but who isnt, in this course. but she doesnt mind helping and she's encouraged me a few times, and she was the first person i talked to on the orientation day. i didnt know she was attached. and oh she's forever messaging! haha. funny. first person from our class i took foto with too. just 2 days ago with ter's phone. :)
amanda. think she's 18 too. kinda wilder, i think she clubs and stuff. wears very very short skirts, many earrings, but she's actually quite chio, but she's got such a big chest. acts quite bimbo sometimes, has a high voice. but quite cute :)
dawn. dawn and amanda are les in our class. officially haha (both are attached to guys). dawn has a great body, didnt like her much at first coz caught her ponning class on the second day of school so lame right, but working with her im quite ok. another person who likes her ideas to be taken and used. likes to be the star too. she's also a bit wild, or well, just your typical chiobu sort and her bf taking neoprints in all sorts of touchy-feely poses. haha. :)
joanna. linkin park and punk chick. has a funny laugh. she's quite nice but we seldom talk. she's malay too like harie. i dunno her too well but i think she's cool, we get along. she's attached to this very chinese looking guy. i think he's a mix blood or he's a chinese muslim. cant recall. :)
shalini. think she's indian. but a very modern new age one not one in a sari and all. she's ok, likes to make dirty jokes too, they all do. we seldom talk too. mainly all these that i dont talk to much, belong in one clique or something. shalu, jon, wendy, jo im not sure if she's in the clique. think so.
wendy. was a cheerleader i think. so good bod, short skirts too, chio to guys, sporty but fair. quite nice too, but never talk much. have this feeling jon likes her, he sticks to her quite a lot. heard that albert from tennis class likes her, but im not sure does he like sylvia or her. :)
farhana. she's 20 this yr. finished then waited a year then came here. she's ok, we talk some, coz she's on my crew haha. we talk school stuff and all. oh she's malay too. she's quite quiet until you start talking to her, then she'll respond. she doesn't always join in everything we say. :)
penny. penny has good figure, she's really quite cute too. she says she's very lazy haha its obvious sometimes but not at other times. she does computer art for a hobby sia, how can that be lazy? she wears gio junior clothes haha, coz she worked there got staff discount, and she can fit into the clothes. she's 2 cm taller than me and proud of it. idiot haha. dont be fooled by her seemingly small and 'quiet' shy type look. she's not. :)
mabel. the ah soh wok seller from metro. she's tall and bigger build than the other girls, she knows how to dress up, wears make up too, has nice earrings and necklaces, penny says she has a hundred earrings. freakY! then she's nice too, likes to tease me sometimes, but then they all do. lol. oh but smtimes she also likes to be heard and kinda pushes her points and wants to be involved in everything when doing stuff in a group. smtimes can get tiring. but she's nice! :)
k i have no time i gotta go and change and leave. i missed out quite a few pple but sorry! will continue tonight if got energy after tennis. ciao! peace yo.


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Tuesday, July 20, 2004
narrative video filming day

oh gosh i am so burnt from filming the narrative video... 5 long hours in the hot scorching sun and i didnt sit down for more than 5 minutes at one time, who asked me to be director slash camerawoman sia... not that i minded in fact i had some fun but mainly i did it for the experience, and coz i would look stupid in front of the camera instead of behind it... then i was carrying a total of 15kg worth of stuff, 3kg give or take was the laptop on my back, 5kg or so was the huge camera bag on my left shoulder, and the rest was the silver casket in which the monitor and cables sat comfortably while we struggled up and down stairs and stuff with it... two people had to split the weight of that one. its so sian diao. haha. well hope the finished product is a really good one. GOOD JOB TO ALL MY DARLING PEOPLES, THE WONDERFUL YOUNG AND VIBRANT DDPFM [DORCAS DAWN PENNY FARHANA MELVIN] WE TOTALLY ROOOLZ! whatever i am being so lame.
yeah but then today its like... felt kinda sad coz... well, this guy erm.. i need to give him a name sia so he cant be recognized... like... ok shall call him ZZ, so ZZ and i met each other but today he didnt even say a thing to me... he just walked past without a hi or bye, and after that i didnt see him anymore for the day, and i wont see him tmr or thursday, friday neither! shit! so in a week i only see him 2 days. who knows how much time he spends with those girls, esp the poseurs with the bloody caps and the mini skirts. why the hell does he have to be close to them, of all people. sigh. my impression of him has become from great to good, and is slowly going down the scale... sometimes this impression changes but for as long as he doesnt meet the standard, it is going down.
oh well. not gonna see much of t105 for the rest of this week... eh no tmr and friday i will see them, yeah. ok. friday i shall wear something nice. just to pamper myself. humph. after the unglam and draining day today.
ZZ's bdae is coming soon. i wanna buy him sth but its gonna be hard man. for one thing i dunno what he likes at all. or what he doesnt like. i dunno his size so i cant really buy him clothes. never seen him wear a shirt, but he looks fine in everything he wears. in fact he'd look funny in a shirt. lol. too bad for me liking guys who wear shirts. then what could i buy him. so limited. hmm. he wants to take me clubbing next year on my birthday hahahaha, um.. no thanks, i dont like booze and smoke. just doesnt work for me. the dancing does tho :) he said if i dont like we could go for movie or dinner "unless you have plans already or get a bf by then" hahaha. how cute. ZZ you be my bf lah. then everyday i'll stick to you like glue. lol. yeah maybe i'll hold him to the clubbing thing. i am SO not interested in smoke and drink. to say this in french, je n'aime pas les cigarettes lol. did i get that right, i cant recall now.
crap i have to do my specom hmk, if not i'll be late in handing up. im so tired how to do now!! argh no choice. tmr got tennis sia wah laus gonna get MORe burnt, no wait i cant get more burnt already anyway. argh tmr got sab presentation sian diaoz!! better score high marks!! kk, rushing off to do specom ciao!!! au revoir! salut!

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