DoRcAs
all the colours in a rainbow plus all others you can name. reading. taking neoprints. 5566. boa. simple plan. christina. evanescence. a lot of other singers/bands i cant remember their names. songs. sleeping. going out. talking deep with someone. going out alone. woodlands library. my dark red checked backpack. my cd player. jace7.blogdrive.com. taking photos. laksa the yellow noodle. vespa bikes. writing. happiness. pointy shoes that dont give blisters. flare skirts. my silver slippers. my roxy backpack. my black necklace. my colourful star necklace. cuff bracelets. smiling people. stoning. guitar. my room. the wooden coloured phone set with the huge buttons. my white and red sweaters. chocolate or chocolate chip. surprising bouquets of flowers. red roses. blue roses. lilies. every other flower that looks good. broadband. my adiddas sneakers. my nike track shoes. my ring with the pink crystal button. my diamond ring. dancing. singing. friends who dont suck. smallish dogs. the 2 cats from the malay family at story 1 which always stare at me. my 6 budgies. loud music. ballads. laughing at funny statements in books. especially romantic comedies.
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Friday, August 13, 2004
debatefrenchtestandsomethingtolookforwardtotmr
debate.
it sucked.
we lost.
we knew from the start.
at least, some of them. they believed we would and we did.
i didnt think we would lose.
that badly.
everyone agreed that we sucked.
melvin told me my group was "really bad."
well. what do you expect.
we didnt meet up at all.
only once, and we argued for a full 1.5 hrs over the first decision.
dont think i should blame anyone.
although no one seemed to really take it seriously and bother to put in much effort, other than last minute effort, i dont really want to point fingers.
wish i had been more organized on my part.
wish i didnt screw up the bloody rebuttal part. i had strong points of rebuttal.
never mind.
sylvia didnt come back to school for french. she said she would but in the end didnt.
french class slightly less people today.
proud of my score for last week's french test.
36/40. topped my class. everyone's envious. hoho.
scored 19/20 for written and 17/20 for oral.
good job dorcas *pats self on back*
thanks melvin, for giving me the house of flying daggers notepad. i want the i robot one, give me also lor. haha.
i REALLY appreciate you being willing to take me to the hoobastank thing tomorrow.
it's like the nicest thing anyone from poly has done so far.
even though im not a huge fan of hoobastank, i basically like them.
and whatever it is, getting to meet celebs is still great.
i really really hope i can go.
just for the heck of it.
sigh but sunday i have xian chang.
if i go to sentosa tmr i will have to miss choir practially altogether.
and then sunday i have to be able to sing.
somehow i just dont feel confident about it. and i dont feel good about not practising and giving it my best.
i feel bad that i treat this little way of serving God, so lightly.
but i'll never get another chance to go to something like that.
hope things will work out.
i think i should be more firm and more decisive.
i think i shouldn't always be so mixed.
i should learn to stick by what i know is the right thing to do, and be less swayed by anything else.
somehow its very difficult.
anything i think i need to end here.
maybe i should take a crash course on hoobastank or else i'll look like such an ass if i get to go tomorrow.
haha.
peace yo. out.
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 10:13 pm
overdose of pissers for one day
like, whats with everything going wrong todaY?
first i think my debate is like shit. really. i dont know what in hell suja will say tomorrow.
second, connection at mac went crazy. i think there's a virus in their connection, coz it showed on my comp. when i come home it doesnt say there's virus anymore. but now everything i open lags by a few full minutes. some things keep not responding. sickening.
third, come back see someone's nick telling me to leave him alone, donno what about my A1 and whatever, sia lah once out of school the O level grade means Nothing at all, what does he know all he likes to think is oh how pathetic i am cant do anything i am so lousy no need to try anymore... so much worse than me at least i bucked up and chionged the week before O levels, and i did something to help myself like go and get tuition, he just sits there on his ass feeling sorry for himself and when people like me go and love him a bit and care and encourage him, he says yeah i'll try, i hope so, i hope i can do well, sigh sigh sigh, then in the end does nothing about it. and he comes round and asks me to leave him alone coz i got some grade in my exam last year which i dont even know how i came to get other than God's blessing... what the hell sia just go and rot and die if you want. i already have no energy to live my own life, i cant help you live yours anymore. if yo udont appreciate your friends, esp me and i say so coz i really really care about you and im always worried about you and im not encouraging you because i got good grades, i never even mentioned my grades once to you, and you're like using it against me... fug off lah. wah lau how hurting can you be sia. you went and liked her and still like her not enough, even as a friend you must disappoint me. wah lau i cannot be bothered liao lah.
fourth, ask dad to fix the photo printer for me to print gracom project, he show me face colour, say until so buay song, say later he sleep already then i wake him up again. hello? you sleep meh? you havent even go into ur room until now, thats why i asked u just now. and hello, its a GRACOM project, it MATTERS know, im not trying to 'waste your time' im not asking u to fix the printer coz i wanna play or what can... who ask u to be the only one who knows how to do whatever u did to all those cables and wires everywhere, later i touch one thing and everything crash again then u also kp me, ask u to do u also kp me, then what u want sia... fug man. damn pissed today.
haha. my hokkien damn lan sia... buay hiao kong at all... ask daniel to speak to me in hokkien. i can understand but i cannot reply coz i always forget all the common words... damn.
well, ending blog here. third entry of the day. all 3 are such pissed off entries. k ciao.
dorcas
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 12:22 am
Thursday, August 12, 2004
second entry of today and im not so calm not anymore
in fact i am pissed off now..
its like im trying mybest but i dont know what shit to include in my debate and it seems everything i write is rubbish... and its like i really dont know what to say... everything seems useless..
i think the only way we may have a shot at winning this thing is to be real oconfident about it and look like we really know and are concinved of what we're saying. i think we have no concrete evidence to back it up, at least for me, everything is like more of my own opinion only... just statements without facts and stats.... yeah. shat thats all i got.
and this bloody connection is really driving me nuts lor. every 1 minute resets and everything. i cant stand it!!!!!!! grrr!!
therefore i cant go into msn coz it signs out every other second and in again... which means i cant even discuss with them about the debate... dammit i should have just stayed at home sia... at least at home i can access mda website and all that shit. here i cant do anything at all...
feel freaking useless sia..
feel an ache somewhere inside my head, like a headache's coming right up... damn sian. havent even touched my storyboard. luckily time seems to be passing slowly today, so tho i have spent abt 3 hrs on this debate which is only worth 3 minutes, at least i still feel i have time to do storyboard, and im not in a state of panic.... anyway i think i will enjoy the storyboard more lor... since its drawing and i kinda like to do it so...
sigh. just hoping to stay sane while i attempt to finish my part of the debate with peace of mind... haiz.
well i think i should stop whining and go back to work if not i may never finish it
ooh radio playing shut up now.... but i cant hear none of it haha coz i got earphones plugged into my lappy.
peace out.
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 4:16 pm
another day
I BECOME SO NUMB I CAN FEEL YOU THERE... ALL I WANT TO DO IS BE MORE LIKE ME AND BE LESS LIKE YOU!!!
well. today i am here to chiong tomorrow's debate and storyboard.... sigh.
ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE... COME ON COME ON...
i think there's some shit wrong with the connection today.... it keeps dc-ing and getting reset and stuff... quite irritating but it reconnects quite fast so still bearable i guess.... but i hope it stops coz its like damn irritating to see the thing pop up and tell me there's no connection one min then next min connection excellent...
damn there it went again...
but i love to bring my laptop out in public (and again..) coz its like damn cool and i see people looking at me in a different light hohoho... poser...
and then i love thursdays most of the time (AND again...) my mood is different as day and night whether or not im in school....
IT'S MY LIFE, DON'T YOU FORGET!!
ok finally im done eating and can type this continuously... whats sickening is that i found the power point in this mac.... so i dont have to worry abt battery at all.... but like i have been saying the connection is seriously piss offish today. i think if i were to count, since i connected till now, it has dc-ed and reconnected abt 15 times in all. and i think if i sign into msn, it dc even faster. seems like everyone tries to put firewalls or something to stop msn. oh there went the connection AGAIN. wonder if they're doing it on purpose..
anyway, yeah im starting to freeze to death... didnt bring sweater... thought i could last it out but apparently im weaker today than normal since i just recovered from my bad bad flu from yday. AND AGAIN. bloody connection!!
yeah so anyway. today gonna be alone, no daniel no gabriel here with me lalalalaaaaaa...
hope i get to eat dinner out later. dont feel like having to rush home.
what do you guys think of singapore idol? i think it sux. no one is really that good, there are a few alright ones but the others are all simply trying too hard to be the next will hung... cant people see that william is only famous because america made him, a chinese guy, into a big bloody fool? put it this way, do you wanna be the next chinese fool?? YES apparently, for guys like steven lim, lemon tree idiot and that guy who sang without volume.... and what was up with banana man?? he just shouldnt have done the whole mask thing. want to make a fool of himself (i mean, u can tell right by the choice of song) but dare not show his face. sigh.... why are singaporeans like that. grow up lah... please. dont let other people say we are such childish people, laughing at lameness and striving so hard to be lousy instead of good... and the thing about the judges is that they seem to prefer those not-very-singaporean contestants to the true blue singaporeans... hello this is singapore idol... at least try to not discrimanate the singaporeans... stop picking those with the eurasian look or the accent... even though they sound nicer when they speak, or they look better... the only time i was impressed with the judges was when that malay girl got in... it was true, she had nothing but her voice, i mean, she doesnt exactly look like much of a star, she dont have the perfect body at all or the perfect face... but i felt she was a good one, and tim really glad they let her in, if not i would be truly disappointed with the judges... even then, they had her sing again to prove herself... yeah i admit she screwed up the high note, but guess you cant blame her, she knew she was only gonna get in based on her voice and the pressure was great enough.
shit my fingers are almost all numb again... HATE the screwed connection today... sigh ok shall end here for now.. peace yo, dorcas, out.
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 1:37 pm
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
flu... hai...
Hmmm…
Very tired today. Coz got a cold somehow. Maybe yesterday gabe pass to me sia. Oh well. Haha. But im tired lah really.
Tennis today, laugh a lot coz mabel damn lame… think teacher give up on me… he didn’t even bother to send me off the court again like last week. Actually today thinking about it I felt like ponning tennis, somemore I am not feeling well liao, but in the end just went for it… sigh. So sad. I wanted to be the tennis teacher’s pet lor. But since I suck at it and he’s not impressed, then cannot lor. Too bad.
Am typing this in Word first, since cannot access internet. Heard that singnet users all got connection problem or something, lag so much until cannot connect. Cant even display the np page which I set as home page… msn cant sign in…. everything cannot use. So only can use Word to blog. Haiz. Need to go online urgently actually, need to get script from Melvin or someone, and need to research for debate and need to get the sab thing from Stephanie. In the end it looks like im gonna be the one doing the whole sab shit. Haiz. What to do. By tmr if it doesn’t get back to normal I will have to go cyber café to use internet liao. Hope they don’t have the same freaking problem there.
Haiz today feel quite sad. Dunno leh. Sometimes I think I am sad when I see a guy like another girl a lot. I think im sad coz I wish that girl was me. Its quite stupid, I know. But it just makes me kinda feel lousy about being me, like, why is it that some people have all the luck, not only do things go right for them, but guys also like them more, or they have more friends, sometimes they don’t even want guys to like them, or they don’t even want more friends, but they just have them. I want also don’t have. So sometimes I get pissed at them too, coz its like they don’t even appreciate the things they have, the friends, the guys, the good grades, the money, whatever. Sigh. Why cant life be fairer.
Yeah. So I guess it makes me sad to see terence. Just now I was like playing with him, then he said eh don’t like that later she (wendy) see. Then I was like, fine sia… wah lau. Then I walk away, then he say eh don’t like that lah then I ran far away up front. Its just that I feel like, im trying to be ur friend then all u care abt is someone who doesn’t even like or bother about you. Then, seeing albert also makes me sad, coz he also likes wendy. Wei han didn’t come, but he ALSO likes wendy. Damn sianz everyone likes wendy. Whatever lah. Then seeing guang yang also damn sianz, coz he likes his wendy too. Different wendy.
Then sometimes I see my other friends, like maybe guohao, and someone else I cannot mention to protect identity, and some other people, they also found people to like and everything… and sometimes I wonder, am I going to just be everyone’s Friend, and remain there, just a Friend and nothing more, no matter how much I care or even if I liked someone, will I forever be the one that they don’t think of, the one who has to hide her feelings so they can be happy, so they can go and like someone else… how come they never know? How come they cant like me first. And how come I always like the wrong people, always the ones who will either never like me back, or already like someone else, or something?
Haiz. Whats the whole point of saying all these. Not like by saying it the people I refer to will like, do anything about it. What sux is I cant even say who the hell they are, and even if I did, doesn’t mean anything good will come out of it. Only means that I’ll prob lose their friendship, or everything will just be damn awkward. I will never be telling any guy how I feel about him anymore. For me I just never get positive responses from these people. It sux big time and I have had enough of it… being not good enough, or not the person that they like, or all that shit.
Sigh my cold seems to be getting worse.
I like having the house to myself. I can do anything I like. I wish my parents will come home late. Just feel like having some peace and quiet and freedom for once.
Tomorrow if I get better, I may bring my work out to do. Just don’t like to stay home, coz dad is around everyday. Its boring. Its not like im doing something bad here, but I just like to be alone at home, or else simply away from my parents. Don’t know why. Just don’t like the fact that when they’re around they still more or less can control what I do and stuff. So I’d rather bring my lappie outside and do sia. Sigh. Tmr gonna have to chiong a lot of things. Debate. Locvdp storyboard if there’s any way Melvin or someone is going to pass to me the edited script. Print gracom? And what else… sab can put on hold since its only due abt 2 weeks later… next week gonna be more busy tho it’s a week’s break… break like no break. Gonna be filming and editing locvdp, then… gotta study for medisoc common test (big thing man…) which is the week after, then Tuesday next week is ah ma birthday sure will go whether or not im allowed to. Then… specom test coming soon also is it?? Don’t even remember.
Then what sux is that this Friday I have French make up lesson, which means I have to miss the fms party, which means I’ll be not only damn tired after French, but I’ll also be left out once again when they start talking abt the party, if they go… and shit, then next Friday there’s the bloody workshop thing which really sux. Pray hard im not in sarah’s group. Really. I don’t wanna be in hafiz group either. Just wanna be with my classmates. Hopefully get penny mabel yawen, either of them is fine.
Sigh e cold is killing me. Draining my energy damn fast. Internet still shat up. So yeah. That’s all I got strength to write about. Peace yo. Dorcas out. etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 8:25 pm
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
i see red today
yesh today my class wore red. i felt quite good about it in the sense that we were like, united against 102 who came for our specom tutorial class... and also during medisoc, if u scanned the whole LT, you wld see the occasional red speck and it would be one of us 105 peeps. haha it was quite nice. i like red, so all the more better. unfortunately i dont have many red clothes at all.
hmm today wasnt that great a day however. ok lemme run thru the day as briefly as possible. knowing me its not really possible haha.
1. i find its true, jian qi does like to argue and fight about his points... but then he's also a nice person aside from the arguing lor. seriously. its like, i started noticing after he lent me a dollar, and then we sat at the same table for lunch, and during debate in library. during lunch, he bought soya bean milk, and i was like wah i want, but i was just saying only, and he actually offered to me. that was nice of him, though i wasnt really seriously wanting him to offer. but still quite nice. yah.
2. terence and his attitude got on my nerves like scorching fire man. seriously i blew a bit of my top already today. i just felt damn pissed off, why the hell was he venting his anger on the rest of us and fighting our every point and diss every single thing we were trying to do? just coz he got a bad grade for specom AS#2 then he was like really showing us face colour, going off by himself, shouting at us sometimes, or rather raising his voice lah, and when we tried to do stuff he wld just put everything down and not even make a bloody effort to try and get over himself. then i just got real mad then i said, terence can you dont like that a not, very difficult you know! then i slammed the newspaper clippings on the table and just busied myself with doing the debate. it was like, i was tired and his constant attituding and announcing he was leaving and spouting not-really-vulgarities-but-just-not-nice-to-hear words, was just NOT helping sia. haiz. so far in the past 7 weeks i havent shown temper to any one from my class before, in fact, havent shown any temper to anyone in poly yet. until today lor. even derek, i thought he cant get angry one, but he did, also due to terence's loud jarring comments. derek, i think he was more exasperated that we didnt get anything done for the first 1.5hrs because we couldnt agree on anything BECAUSE terence had something to say about everything we decided on. he attacked all of us, derek, me, jian qi... wendy also. but less. duh.
but im glad to say that things got better after that terrible time. somehow managed to start on something, tho he still attitude for some time more, than VERY slowly he started getting better, than started joking, then TOTALLY BULLIED ME... HOHO we were like damn idiotic down there throw things at each other, then he keep making fun of me (but i just laughed along with him lah. at least he was being better lor. if not, he prob go back into that stupid state...) then a lot of things lah. in the end the moral of the group was boosted some, i mean at least we were back on talking terms, then me and him like, gaying around lah. suddenly he like damn buddy buddy with me, maybe it was to make wendy jealous but i dont really think she was considering she doesnt like him, but it was alright lah. so far i havent been very close to terence coz no chance to really know him, other than the occasional chat online which is never about anything worth remembering... yeah then ok lor now.
3. feeling very tired and restless tonight. in fact, for the whole of today lah. didnt see a single school student in the morning and everything, which reminded me that i was going to school while they were all still sleeping... and then medisoc lect, so many people absent today, jing ying not here (quite thankful for that coz if she came i wldnt have lived thru lect without getting really irritated and prob wld show some face colour...), and hafiz also not here, wonder if he's sick but i think most prob he just cldnt wake up or decided that since he was late liao might as well not come. msged him but he didnt reply, i think he called me or something but i missed it and anyway i dont like getting calls coz damn ex. yeah so anyway, im going to sleep like once im done with this and settling my locvdp stuff with penny... really, really, really, sianzified liao lah. dunno why today feel so shatty haiz. just dont feel like doing nothing at all.
is it possible to hate someone you dont even know?
coz i hate sarah. sarah anne or some shit. i dont know her but i really really dislike her and a little more and i will officially hate her. i dont know why i hate her. actually i do, because she's bloody attitude, poser, bitch. as in, i know she has a great figure and all that but she can stop flaunting it and just be a bit more.... normal like the rest of us just for once. i think she'll find life happier if she could stop having to keep the cool image and therefore the freaking attitude too. and for goodness sake, does she have something against me being hafiz's friend? i mean, i dont even have anything against her (openly), and that time when he was talking to me she was like giving me that bloody look. please lah, its not like im trying to steal HER friend or whatever, she can have him, and anyway do i have to remind her that she has a boyfriend and shawn prob wont be too happy to know that she's like so possessive over another guy?? ahhhh not that i know or care what the hell she's thinking lah. whatever it is, dont involve me. i dont need anything from someone like her. better that we remain strangers. she and sophia or something are precisely the kind of people i never wanted to meet in mass comm, but knew would have to.
ok nvm. i should end now. feeling shatty and completely restless like suddenly i dont feel like going to school everyday. sianz. dorcas out.
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 10:48 pm
Monday, August 09, 2004
so so so tired liao!!!
argh ok. its bloody 3.10am now.
been talking to guang yang. guess there was a lot to say, coz we just ended now. jialat my brain is blown.
wei han isnt the angel i thought he was. im sad, but at the same time, very very glad i didnt allow myself to develop even a slight crush on him. coz he SARKX. poor albert. i start to sympathize with him, perhaps see him in a better light now. because it doesnt EVER feel nice to be stabbed by a friend.
nice talking to guang yang. for once he talk more sense than stupid bhb jokes haha. he always thinks im serious, when im joking. doink. cant tell from all my hahas that im joking meh. lol. yah but i finally discovered that he can be serious, and he can feel things for real and not everything just joke abt it. i forced him to tell wendy. im not sure if he will, but i'll try and hook them up. well. if wendy doesnt mind me butting in lidat lah, after so many yrs of not seeing each other... im always doing this for gy. being his... matchmaker or someone he turns to only when he got girl trouble... the last time it was abt amelia, for yu jia not much coz i dunno her and i dont like her. now for wendy. smtimes i remember these things i do for him, and i feel somewhat attached to him but he doesnt share the feeling. thats why we remain normal frenz and arent very close. but well... its ok lor. i mean... he likes someone know, if i can help, might as well lor.
yeah so, i think i shd sleep. im expected to get up for badminton tmr morning. damn sianz. really. i dont want today to end. coz after tmr is over, its back to school and endless ridiculous chionging once again...
me and terence damn lame. i put my nick as yandao and put his pic, he put his nick as chiobu and put my pic. then we write on the pix, yandao, and chiobu. hahahahaha, terence is right, ego booster man!! aki looks pretty good in the foto, but he doesnt look that good in real life leh... lol. how come? usually shd be the other way round right....
anyway, i have to go. mom gonna scream if i drag somemore. nitez! ERRRR morningz!
peace yo.
out.
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 4:19 am
Sunday, August 08, 2004
in mac
yoyoyo
yay conquered another mac today... using the super fast connection, skynetglobal.... fantastic connection man... YAY i love working in mac..
anyway yeah today... happy coz sat beside yile for the whole service!! haha eh it wasnt planned one lor. just that i came late so sat there and then they were like all teasing me hahahaha.<interrupt here coz lappy shut down coz no batt liao. then go dinner then come home then conitnue> and i just had to take the chance ot gross them out by saying he was yandao and all that lol. make them sick.
yeah then... he talked to me some but once again we were on different wavelength!! grrr. but well we both agree the kids were cute. actually i was happy coz this morning he sms-ed to thank me for the present... im really glad he liked it coz if not, i wld have been damn embarrassed... haha. so gals you were so wrong! he wasnt grossed out and he isnt a da nan ren aka mcp, wahahaha. too bad. yeah then after the service he thanked me again, and i was like, happy :) then he said take care, coz we were gonna separate liao. then i went about grossing the girls out more by gushing about him. their reactions always damn funny!! i love to do it haha. esp to beat and tianyu. but they refused to gimme the sweet coz they said the sweet is only for "the normal people" and not those who "like gross things". they calling him gross lor!! sob sob. hahahaha i mean, whats new. they've been at it since i could remember.
yeah then today what else... er went to mac with daniel.... copied notes and tried to start on gracom but kinda failure haha. im very tired now. yeah but so, copied a bit of notes only. dont know why i seemed to work damn slow today, or time passed very fast, and in the end i found i hadnt done as much as i had hoped to do... so yeah gracom still undone now. will finish tonight before i sleep, no matter what i do. so why am i here still blogging and wasting time??! haha.
yeah then over dinner, i blabbed on about me to daniel, poor him always gotta listen to my rubbish. but its nice to talk and be heard lah. not always fighting to be heard, but just being heard. thats why i like to go out in small groups, or just with another individual. coz u are heard when you talk and you dont have to shout. i always end up shouting or else not talking when im with a big grp. who asked me to be short, i know. suckz. and now he knows my deep dark secret hohoho. i warn you, dont tell anyone ok. no one knows hor!! its so embarrassing. and you know that thing i said about subconscious thing plus me and relationships? its just a maybe. i have no proof that it is for real, and i guess it really depends on whether i like the guy enough, or something lidat, noe? its not the full reason as to why i dont do relationships... like i said, i have no proof. yah.
well... hmm dunno what to blog liao lor. didnt go to esplandade as planned... sorry hafiz, but anyway you are clubbing now right, so its ok lah no loss. :) yeah but im somewhat glad i didnt go also. hmm. maybe another time bah.
yawnz. tired. want to sleep but cannot. gotta go gracom remember?! yah.
just now i saw a Von Dutch cap, bag and shirt that i really really feel like buying. only that i dont have no money at all to buy haha. then there was a pink halter dress from Red2 that i liked a lot but also didnt buy. guess thats the price to pay for all my auctioning.... left with no money to buy anything liao. haiz.
hmm ok going to start on gracom again. wish me luck before i kill my machine trying to do it, like the last gracom project.
peace yo, dorcas, out.
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 11:30 pm
purest of pain
well
there isnt really a reason for my title. just feels like it says something i wont be saying here.
finally got to give yile his bdae present today. wonder what he thinks about it. maybe he's really too macho man to like the bear i gave him. oh no. haha. heck. met him on the train today, so we walked into the choir room together and they were like, eehh.... haha. i mean they were thinking that not saying it. just now i was replaying our conversation in the train and i realize we were on different wavelengths, as usual! he said, you tie your hair i cannot recognize you. i heard dye your hair, so i said its been lidat for very long already what. then the convo sort went on a little while more abt my hair, with both of us thinking different things haha. damn we're always like so blur with each other. just now tiffany asked me to wear a J, for jireh. haha. hey dont gimme ideas, i just might lor....
today i was tired the whoe day wonder why hmm. and now here i am again at this unearthly hour, blogging. sianz. donno what to blog about.
next sunday xian chang!! grrr only knew abt it today. really must make more effort to learn the song by sat if not im gone liao... such a nice song i dont wanna screw it up on stage...
wow its so quiet.
nobody come and chat with me tonight. win already lor.
oh by the way the cool thing is i found a long lost friend from my pri school days, its really really cool and surprising, i didnt even remember her but she remembered me, which is absolutely, wow. haha. she was my friend back then, i remember so, but i always have a hazy memory, well, something was not quite right with her, if im not wrong, people didnt like her much, i cant remember why, maybe she was kinda bossy or smarty-pants or something know? or bitchy? i really forgot. but now she shd be alright. and the darndest thing EVER is that she's the wendy that guang yang told me he likes, and i didnt even know i knew her! and she found me thru him. AND also me and wendy both know simon hahaha. she's in bit. she just told me that guang yang actually went up and introduced himself and asked for her number sia. he's got weird taste man. but then, im still quite glad its her. at least i know her. and i can like... talk to her abt him... its just cool. we hope to meet up when there's time, maybe in canteen 1 or something. hope can lor. hope to meet jie ying too!! another old fren, used to be from my clique. there were i think 4 of us? me jie ying yit shan and lixian. no wendy wasnt part of it. oh and there was shirleen/shirlyn. i forget the actually spelling. or is it shireen? hmmmmm. oh just to clear any doubts, they're not from fmps one... from somewhere else... yah.
shit dammit i think my mom just came out of her room means she saw my light on means im still awake means she's gonna kp me like hell once again, when she gets the chance to. shit lah. cant i have some privacy and peace of mind while im at it...
well. this weekend got a lot of work to do. after copying my notes i still have to do gracom project and debate research. jialat sia. think my brains will blow. when i stop aching i will go and run again.
sigh tired lah back really hurts from the way im sitting... time's up, 2 am already. going to sleep. tmr's church cannot pon. shit lah, really very tired man.
there must have been more i wanted to say if not i wouldnt have come and blogged, but i cant remember anything more. oh..... OH.. now i remember.. but not to be blogged here one... shat.
k lor nvm dont blog liao. damn tired, breaking down now. the end of this short entry.
wah damn my leg went numb coz i put my lappie on it... now change leg and this one going numb asap...
peace yo.
dorcas out.
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 3:06 am
Saturday, August 07, 2004
fiz birfday... sad sad sad... not him, me.
happy birthday hafiz. finally 17. feel any different?
today. tired. damn tired. sleeping in locvdp tutorial. and then wei chin sorta like dissed my group and everything, ok i know our video sucked but we really tried esp with the music thing... and then during consultation she was like quite fierce also, dunno why lah. we were just trying to be friendly, maybe she thought we were digressing or something.
then what else....
yeah after locvdp, had to kill time waiting for fiz... luckily got melvin... hey girlfren, thanks for listening to my bitching... you're quite cool in your own way lah, you understand me haha. yeah. its nice when a guy understands. and he actually feels sad for me. AAWWW thanks. but then he keep reminding me by saying things, wah... pain lor.
yeah then turned out fiz had forgotten he was supposed to meet me... so i called him.. if i didnt he prob wouldnt have come... yeah well... we talked for a brief minute then he rushed off coz i think people were waiting for him back at the bus stop where he came from... so yeah.
melvin and i left after a while, i went off he went library coz he got french today thus staying back...
yeah..
wah no mood to blog
oh but i wanna say im proud of myself coz i went and ran two rounds just now... and did some sit ups and push ups... after like how many donkey years of not doing any exercise save the weekly tennis sessions... should make this routine like every friday or wtv but i doubt i can keep to it... today's was just a spur of the moment thing, sudden enthusiasm abt it. its a long story but there was a reason why i suddenly went and ran today.
then somemore, i decided to take 154 all the way home. hey, that actually means something ok... i dont ever take 154 all the way coz the journey bloody long and gives me bad headaches...
k lah i think i go snooze, or else i shall go offline and start doing my work liao....
once again, happy birthday hafiz. peace yo. dorcas out.
etched upon this screen by the unpretty princess at 2:00 am
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