internet keeps crashing. am sick to death of the same problem happening over and over again.
life seems like a thunderstorm right now. seven days and seven nights of thunder. and lightning and the sea swells with angry waves. its dark wet cold and plain sickening.
its so sickening to live.
i really feel like getting away. somewhere where i can be alone and when i come back my life will be different. i want to forget everything about my life, other than what's important to me. i want to forget all my friends and be a whole new person. not bound to anyone, not hindered by anyone's expectations of me, and people who knew the old me can no longer judge me according to that. sometimes its not such a bad thing to lose one's memory, is it? not to me at least. because then i can finalyl wipe out the past, without having to die or something. as long as i can still remember people like my family, thats enough.
something has ended. im not sure if its the right thing to do, whether it should have happened this way. but well, time will heal.
nothing else to say.
i really feel like getting away. somewhere where i can be alone and when i come back my life will be different. i want to forget everything about my life, other than what's important to me. i want to forget all my friends and be a whole new person. not bound to anyone, not hindered by anyone's expectations of me, and people who knew the old me can no longer judge me according to that. sometimes its not such a bad thing to lose one's memory, is it? not to me at least. because then i can finalyl wipe out the past, without having to die or something. as long as i can still remember people like my family, thats enough.
something has ended. im not sure if its the right thing to do, whether it should have happened this way. but well, time will heal.
nothing else to say.