i feel like saying fuck.
oh. how lame. i just said it.
just now i played tennis till i cried. i cant stand it. the game makes me really frustrated and makes me feel really stupid about myself. i hate the game. because it makes me feel like a failure. no matter how hard i try i still cant play well. just like in specom. i try but i cant speak well. i still lose.
lose lose lose.
thats what im here in life for.
to lose. to always be the someone who loses
in everything.
i lose in everything, to everything, and everything.
everything, everyone i love, everything i cherish, i lose.
fuck.
"let me tell you what you want baby!"
its in an f.i.r song. doesnt mean anything when i type it, but now im thinking abt it and it means
its in an f.i.r song. doesnt mean anything when i type it, but now im thinking abt it and it means
something.
ARGH WTF IS WRONG WITH ME MAN
i am going crazy!
i am going crazy!
fuck im damn p.i.s.s.e.d.
daniel can you not always choose those days when im really fucked up, to get on my case?
then its like, he's totally pissing me off with every single thing he's doing.
i am already tired of waiting and liking him. i cant remember previously giving up on someone this fast. usually i hold out for a long time. but right now due to the build up of negativity these few days, i have no energy to spend on all these things anymore. so its really too bad but im over the limit.
he's always either doing something else or he doesnt notice anything or something like that. cant stand it lah. really had enough of people being this way in my life. nobody ever notices the shit. everyone's forever preoccupied. enough man. enough.
i feel absolutely SICK of everything and everyone.
just get lost.
there's nothing to talk about.
MISERABLE.
CAN THE WORLD JUST FUCK OFF FOR A WHILE AND LEAVE ME ALONE. ALREADY MISERABLE WHAT MORE DO YOU ALL WANT.
just want to leave my body and fly away.
dorcas
daniel can you not always choose those days when im really fucked up, to get on my case?
then its like, he's totally pissing me off with every single thing he's doing.
i am already tired of waiting and liking him. i cant remember previously giving up on someone this fast. usually i hold out for a long time. but right now due to the build up of negativity these few days, i have no energy to spend on all these things anymore. so its really too bad but im over the limit.
he's always either doing something else or he doesnt notice anything or something like that. cant stand it lah. really had enough of people being this way in my life. nobody ever notices the shit. everyone's forever preoccupied. enough man. enough.
i feel absolutely SICK of everything and everyone.
just get lost.
there's nothing to talk about.
MISERABLE.
CAN THE WORLD JUST FUCK OFF FOR A WHILE AND LEAVE ME ALONE. ALREADY MISERABLE WHAT MORE DO YOU ALL WANT.
just want to leave my body and fly away.
dorcas