thinking back on it now, maybe the actual dinner wasnt that enjoyable, but being there and with people that i didnt know i missed quite a lot, was. although our class turnout was damn little compared to other classes, it was just quite nice lor. i REALLY REALLY want to take some fotos with some people, and some more fotos with those i took with, but sadly there's no chance to. want to take some more with guohao. didnt take any with elena so i want to take with her. want to take more with jx. del. tiff. kian wee. didnt take any with gabriel. want to take with cass. su yi. anyone i know. just want to take with them i can remember them. sigh. i dont have the akapella foto. im damn pissed. but what to do. and the one foto with ben is over-exposed. grrrr!!!
haiz. but well, out of all my fotos, which are very very very few compared to that of my imagination which is too many anyway, i like the picture of terry, simply because he looks good in the foto, and i just have been trying to get a foto of him since what, 2 years ago? so to finally get it is just nice lor. then i like the one of myself, though its very small, cant see details like my necklace or whatever... a bit wasted lah. nvm. then.... those with other people one... i like the one with mark, only because i seem to look nice there, not that i know mark at all haha... and i cant remember the other ones lah. basically my hair looks damn weird in all of them. its the fringe lah. maybe i shd try and fix the fringe.
well tonight... the dinner programme... um was alright, basically nothing much, people were just taking fotos and saying hi to other people lor.. nothing lah.. hardly ate anything which is quite sad, dunno whats the waiter's prob didnt gimme noodles lor damn him. i always say thank you to him and he dont gimme noodles. then no mushroom. then the fish gimme all the broken pieces. wah lau. in the end i drank 5 glasses of coke. dammit. yeah then had some people sing on stage for us, got one grp pri 4, one grp pri 5, one grp ex sec 4 i.e. timothy leon etc. k lah. but i still felt like a lot was missing from the dinner. we didnt have much to say to each other, maybe we're just not close lor. esp jerome and joseph, i think they were kinda left out too, since their clique wasnt there, i.e shirong and terence. piak and huimin also didnt come. nick didnt. ok to name those who did, me guohao del tiff daniel joseph jerome lijia who didnt sit with us jonathan wen jia yen bing jian xiang i think thats all right. yeah. no elena no kelvin... quite quiet without them. donno leh. maybe its just me, or else, i didnt feel a connection with the rest of those in that big room. even with those of us around the same table, sometimes i couldnt think of anything to say to them, simply coz i dont even know them at all. like jerome and joseph. what could we possibly talk abt other than school, which only in name, we have in common. aaaahhh. dunno. saw other classes seem so happy and so united and i felt quite sad that we're not like that at all.
(just let me say this oop thing which you may not understand but im just frustrated abt it... WHY THE HELL AM I STILL DC-ING I THOUGHT HE FIXED THE DAMN CONNECTION TODAY ALREADY, WHATS THE REAL PROBLEM WITH THIS CONNECTION HUH?!? STILL DC-ING? ISNT IT SUPPOSED TO BE FIXED FOR GOOD? DAMN!!)
yes next. then after the dinner we went to esplanade. loved loved loved being there at that time and it was damn nice and windy. really love the place at night. lotsa couples lah but its ok i guess. just makes me kinda wish i had someone special to go there with. oh well. yeah so i really felt reluctant to leave, although we spent quite long there, but there were still many things i really wanted to talk about, like, just wanted to know whats been up with them, i really wish we could have talked more, felt kinda left out as i always do, coz a lot of things i know that i dont know. but i guess everyone was like just... maybe tired, maybe thinking about the whole going home thing... so its like... yeah. then tmr most pple have school. i dont, but i have to get up early, go out early, buy all my supplies, find the stand for fiz's present, do my media updates, do my gracom bloody projects... F i forgot about copying my notes. no copying's gonna get done tmr liao. forget it haiz. no mood or energy to think now.
yeah so we spent quite a while there but after that we had to leave liao. by then was already past 1140pm i think. squashed into del's dad's car. in the end everyone got dropped off just downstairs of their homes. many thanks for the lift again! sorry for the trouble, really.
sigh. so yeah. guess thats all lor. still missing some people, like, just feel like talking to them and sorta re-finding these people i once talked to and once knew, perhaps more than hi bye or no talk to all... you could say i miss those whom i dont know. coz they're now all strangers, if you mean personally.
k lor, gonna go and do something else. haiz. wish i could have stayed at esplanade. coming home, only see my mother's not-very-happy-face for some reason, my dad's prob really mad with me for coming home after 12, but i couldnt help it today, and yday. he shdnt blame me, its not like i went clubbing or anything.
well. ciao. au revoir. good morning.
dorcas
peace out
p.s forgot to mention that my camera fell into the prawn dish and gave me a heart attack... which reminds i have to wash the stupid case before ants come sia. haiz too lazy. and parents will then know that something happened. i cant tell them see...
yeah so we spent quite a while there but after that we had to leave liao. by then was already past 1140pm i think. squashed into del's dad's car. in the end everyone got dropped off just downstairs of their homes. many thanks for the lift again! sorry for the trouble, really.
sigh. so yeah. guess thats all lor. still missing some people, like, just feel like talking to them and sorta re-finding these people i once talked to and once knew, perhaps more than hi bye or no talk to all... you could say i miss those whom i dont know. coz they're now all strangers, if you mean personally.
k lor, gonna go and do something else. haiz. wish i could have stayed at esplanade. coming home, only see my mother's not-very-happy-face for some reason, my dad's prob really mad with me for coming home after 12, but i couldnt help it today, and yday. he shdnt blame me, its not like i went clubbing or anything.
well. ciao. au revoir. good morning.
dorcas
peace out
p.s forgot to mention that my camera fell into the prawn dish and gave me a heart attack... which reminds i have to wash the stupid case before ants come sia. haiz too lazy. and parents will then know that something happened. i cant tell them see...