hmm today wasnt that great a day however. ok lemme run thru the day as briefly as possible. knowing me its not really possible haha.
1. i find its true, jian qi does like to argue and fight about his points... but then he's also a nice person aside from the arguing lor. seriously. its like, i started noticing after he lent me a dollar, and then we sat at the same table for lunch, and during debate in library. during lunch, he bought soya bean milk, and i was like wah i want, but i was just saying only, and he actually offered to me. that was nice of him, though i wasnt really seriously wanting him to offer. but still quite nice. yah.
2. terence and his attitude got on my nerves like scorching fire man. seriously i blew a bit of my top already today. i just felt damn pissed off, why the hell was he venting his anger on the rest of us and fighting our every point and diss every single thing we were trying to do? just coz he got a bad grade for specom AS#2 then he was like really showing us face colour, going off by himself, shouting at us sometimes, or rather raising his voice lah, and when we tried to do stuff he wld just put everything down and not even make a bloody effort to try and get over himself. then i just got real mad then i said, terence can you dont like that a not, very difficult you know! then i slammed the newspaper clippings on the table and just busied myself with doing the debate. it was like, i was tired and his constant attituding and announcing he was leaving and spouting not-really-vulgarities-but-just-not-nice-to-hear words, was just NOT helping sia. haiz. so far in the past 7 weeks i havent shown temper to any one from my class before, in fact, havent shown any temper to anyone in poly yet. until today lor. even derek, i thought he cant get angry one, but he did, also due to terence's loud jarring comments. derek, i think he was more exasperated that we didnt get anything done for the first 1.5hrs because we couldnt agree on anything BECAUSE terence had something to say about everything we decided on. he attacked all of us, derek, me, jian qi... wendy also. but less. duh.
but im glad to say that things got better after that terrible time. somehow managed to start on something, tho he still attitude for some time more, than VERY slowly he started getting better, than started joking, then TOTALLY BULLIED ME... HOHO we were like damn idiotic down there throw things at each other, then he keep making fun of me (but i just laughed along with him lah. at least he was being better lor. if not, he prob go back into that stupid state...) then a lot of things lah. in the end the moral of the group was boosted some, i mean at least we were back on talking terms, then me and him like, gaying around lah. suddenly he like damn buddy buddy with me, maybe it was to make wendy jealous but i dont really think she was considering she doesnt like him, but it was alright lah. so far i havent been very close to terence coz no chance to really know him, other than the occasional chat online which is never about anything worth remembering... yeah then ok lor now.
3. feeling very tired and restless tonight. in fact, for the whole of today lah. didnt see a single school student in the morning and everything, which reminded me that i was going to school while they were all still sleeping... and then medisoc lect, so many people absent today, jing ying not here (quite thankful for that coz if she came i wldnt have lived thru lect without getting really irritated and prob wld show some face colour...), and hafiz also not here, wonder if he's sick but i think most prob he just cldnt wake up or decided that since he was late liao might as well not come. msged him but he didnt reply, i think he called me or something but i missed it and anyway i dont like getting calls coz damn ex. yeah so anyway, im going to sleep like once im done with this and settling my locvdp stuff with penny... really, really, really, sianzified liao lah. dunno why today feel so shatty haiz. just dont feel like doing nothing at all.
is it possible to hate someone you dont even know?
coz i hate sarah. sarah anne or some shit. i dont know her but i really really dislike her and a little more and i will officially hate her. i dont know why i hate her. actually i do, because she's bloody attitude, poser, bitch. as in, i know she has a great figure and all that but she can stop flaunting it and just be a bit more.... normal like the rest of us just for once. i think she'll find life happier if she could stop having to keep the cool image and therefore the freaking attitude too. and for goodness sake, does she have something against me being hafiz's friend? i mean, i dont even have anything against her (openly), and that time when he was talking to me she was like giving me that bloody look. please lah, its not like im trying to steal HER friend or whatever, she can have him, and anyway do i have to remind her that she has a boyfriend and shawn prob wont be too happy to know that she's like so possessive over another guy?? ahhhh not that i know or care what the hell she's thinking lah. whatever it is, dont involve me. i dont need anything from someone like her. better that we remain strangers. she and sophia or something are precisely the kind of people i never wanted to meet in mass comm, but knew would have to.
ok nvm. i should end now. feeling shatty and completely restless like suddenly i dont feel like going to school everyday. sianz. dorcas out.