right. today is ah ma's birthday! just got home not very long ago from the dinner at their place. officially shagged out because i suffered 2 headaches in a day, from the respective train rides. note, boon lay to pasir ris and then pasir ris to boon lay. EXTREME ENDS RESULTING IN EXTREME SHAGGED-OUT-NESS!! the dinner was alright, this year slightly smaller as its a weekday and most relatives are working and stuff. i went slightly earlier, just to spend a bit more time with my grandma and everyone without all the other pple who wld come later... everyone made a fuss abt how i've grown more like a xiao jie, how coloured my hair was, how weird my toenails were (blue and pink alternating), how cool my jeans were, bracelet, even earholes and this comment came from someone else later when i was leaving... and i only have 2 earholes! haha. they should see someone like... i dunno. some of my friends. they'd prob puke.

 basically just very glad to see ah ma after a whole month, she seemed happy tonight coz some relatives and friends came... and she told one of them when they were talking, that when "this one" i. e. Me comes, she is the happiest. when i heard that, i was very happy but also sad, as it only reminded me how i cannot be there for her as much as i would like to and as much as she needs me to. sigh. well. but had a good time, had some time with my bros, and with my cousins who seem to like me a lot more and were like very friendly haha. last time they used to be very shy and didnt talk to me much coz they didnt see me often and thus didnt know me well... but they are really crazy kids lah. all 4 of them. they're very close coz they play together a lot. i just wish there was a smaller age gap between us. i feel damn old with them. my younger bro actually asked me to calculate 5623 divide by 123 minus 2 sia... wah lau, thought im a calculator sia... lol. and i managed to shoot the ball to get 100, 3 times during the game. haha dont understand right. doesnt matter. we took some pictures too, my dad loves to talk pictures, just like my mom, and me. (sigh.) i left the house at about 1030pm... which explains why i reached home just now at 12mn and why my parents are completely pissed, they didnt even bother to sms me or wait up. i dunno why they're like, so sore abt me coming home late. that day it was coz i went for the hooba concert and i was returning from sentosa man, for one thing the concert didnt end on time and there were thousands trying to leave the island, so duh i would be late. at least i got home before 12. tonight, naturally i wld leave later, considering i havent seen my grandma in so long, and its her birthday so duh i would stay slightly longer, and the journey takes 1.5hrs in all. i also reached home before 12mn what. its not like i did anything on purpose. its just circumstances, and surely they could try and be more reasonable and understanding, or just not mind so much?! damn. also stressing me out over these sorta stupid little things.

anyway today, i slept till late, dad went out so i finally had the house to myself for the whole time i was at home. at abt 330 i set off, went to buy presents for my grandma, simple cheap ones. actually wanted to buy her the Ensure milk powder that she drinks, but found i didnt have enough to buy. one can is $25. so couldnt buy. quite unhappy abt it. in the end i bought her a pair of specs coz she was always telling me how she had a pair and they were lost (but as i suspected, that was one of those things she sometimes says which she is convinced is real but is not... siigh. ) then i chose a small pot of fake flowers and bought a card and a nice shiny golden paperbag to put all the stuff in. really felt bad that the present was so cheapo, but there wasnt much else i could think of to buy. well i hope she likes the flowers tho they're fake. there's a lot of love in my present, and that's what counts right? hais...

well i think thats all to say about my day. tmr i really hope everything will go well. i wonder if i should be expecting something to happen tmr... errrr, dont understand? never mind, its meant for me to know only. just talking to myself. well umm. yeah. hope i get my studying done tmr, and also have some fun. wish me luck on the piercing ears thingy. ugh. the pain! damn.

ok i neeeeeeeed sleep. i always need a lot of sleep but i never seem to get enough. k dorcas out.