had some serious gastric problem and i bore with the pain for the whole night, and put up with my parents and their attitudes.....
in the end had to go down to SGH A&E. i didnt want to die.
after all the procedures, i had 2 choices (according to the doc), i could take the medicine home and suffer more, or take an injection and stay there for 2 hrs for observation (which basically means they leave u there to rot for 2 hrs)... stupid me, i chose to take the medicine home. the effect of the medicine is much slowly i guess, coz i still had to bear with more pain and even this morning there's pain. i thought it would be a miracle pain reliever or something.
this morning i meant to go to school for medisoc test.................................................
am really upset that i couldnt go...
when i woke up i went to the toilet to wash up and my limbs weren't responding to my brain signals, my whole body ached from inside outwards, like there were ropes around me. my head felt the worse, totally like a block of lead, all the discomfort just refused to clear. i was damn giddy, started to sweat cold sweat, then my stomach started with all the gastric pain again which made things so much worse. my breathing felt really choked up like i couldnt breath properly. i just threw myself back onto my bed and writhed around.... i'd wanted to go for medisoc and not only could i not go now, i felt poorly and lousy. after a while i decided to just sleep somemore, for one thing i was still tired and perhaps last night's medicine was still working and because i only slept about 5 hours, maybe it wasnt enough for it.
woke up again at about 9am... had to eat breakfast so i could eat my medicine...
to my horror i was struggling to consume one small slice of bread. i just couldnt eat. oh i realize i havent touched on the NAUSEA that comes with everything... it is the WORST ever sort of nausea... and i had to swallow against my body's will, because all i wanted to do was throw up but i couldnt.
to make the bread easier to eat, i ate in small bites and drank water after every bite to soften the thing... so i managed to finish that one slice.
then the horrible part came, medicine again....
there is this very terrible milky white liquid, Famotidine lah ok, you really have to shake it damn well before you drink because you really dont want to drink it otherwise. when you leave it there to stand, this lump of something forms at the bottom of the bottle, and it fills about 1/3 of the bottle. completely gross. yeah. so i took the tablet one and then shook real hard and poured out 20ml of that stuff. after some thought i reasoned i had better take it over a basin because somehow i knew i wasnt going to be able to take this medicine right now... the nausea was already overwhelming and the medicine doesnt exactly taste great...
forced myself to drink it, then i wanted to walk away from the basin, then my stomach just heaved and i turned back and puked out my medicine and some water and whatever. there weren't any solids like bread, but still. dammit i hate to vomit you know?
and since im quite sure all my Famotidine was puked out, i can say that none of it got into my system and therefore it means i didnt take the medicine at all. HECK i refuse to take another dose of it right now!! i think its ridiculous. they design medicine in such a way that the patient cant consume it without reacting i.e. puking out and therefore nothing goes in, then how do they expect you to get well?? dumb. really.
siiiiiiiiiighhhh. everyone will be so happy that medisoc is finally over... but not for me. i have to email suja and ask her if there's going to be a retest. if not.... well thanks. i get an A for Absent, or a Zero. hooray for me. and retests are always much harder. like i didnt study hard enough for this freaking test already. now i'll have no peace.
this week will soon be over and then it will be submission of many projects and stuff. i havent touched a single one.
they say they will be doing gracom together on wed, and on fri they will be going to sentosa for shal's birthday.... well thats nice but i'll prob be left out as usual. anyway im too sick to care. dont have energy to go and be enthu and mind so much about friends and stuff. at the most i'll do gracom myself, fail it, not submit the sab project and therefore fail my whole group....
nah. i didnt mean that.
well i cant wait for the next holiday. beginning to tire of school and all its deadlines and all its politics and everything. and im still worrying about the seminar that we ponned that day. i have this feeling we will be slapped with cip, because cordelia is the bitch in charge. i didnt know that. if i had known i would have gone but well.... its over cant do shit about it but wait for bad news.
well, thats all for my depressing entry. im going back to sleep. dorcas, out.
